When my grandma passed away in 2016, then my mom in 2017 and then a shift happened for me in the ministry in 2018, I lost my sense of self. My grandmother had always held it together for all of us and without her, we were lost. My son said to me, mom it's your time, you're now the glue. You're the one that Grandma left the reins to. It’s up to you to be the one that holds the family together and it's time for you to take your place. At that moment, my state of mind wasn’t good, I was an emotional and mental wreck from all that loss and there was a hole in my heart that my grandma once filled. I was in no position to take on that role, nor did I have the time as I was working 2 full-time jobs to support my family. Mentally and emotionally, I was not solid. My spirit was heavy for a long time over all the loss I dealt with. I felt alone and discarded. I was feeling rejected, overwhelmed, and everything was happening all at once. They say death always comes in threes and it definitely came in threes during that period of time for me.
I'm now in a moment in my life where I have shifted into the assignment and have taken hold of those reigns that Grandma handed down to me when she transitioned into the heavens. I used to get angry because I was always the person who reached out to family and friends to make a connection. I was the person who was making plans and inviting other people, but now I realize that that is who God made me to be, I'm a planner. I schedule events and put them on the calendar so I can invite someone to come with me, or I will go by myself. I call people to check on them, I send text messages, and I send cards of encouragement because that's who I am. That’s who God created me to be. I am the glue. I am the encourager. I am the positive vibe, and the positive energy that God made me to be to bring light to any space I enter.
What assignment has God given you that you failed to walk into or that you were afraid to take hold of? Take a moment to think about this and reflect on ways that you can adjust, adapt and align yourself with the universe, with your God, with your creator.
It's been fun planning dates with my siblings and making time for us to make memories. Just recently my brother and I spent the whole day together. I took him to some of my favorite black owned businesses. We got a coffee from the Scene in Southpark and later in the day got an ice cream from Creamy Cone Cafe in South Seattle. I took him to the high school where our parents met and drove through some of our old neighborhoods. One of which is no longer standing, Rainier Vista if you were interested in what I was referring to. Last week, I introduced my sister to one of my favorite pastimes, Vibe Bingo, and she absolutely loved it.
So, my question to you is, what assignment has God given you? An assignment that you failed to walk into or that you are afraid to take hold of. Take a moment to think about this and reflect on ways that you can adjust or adapt and align yourself with God, the universe or whomever you believe in. That way you are walking in your purpose and leaning all the way into who you were meant to be.
Sending you love, light and positive vibes,
Cassie K.
"Always remember to LIVE life to the fullest, to LAUGH at everything and to LOVE unconditionally!"
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